Looking at my friends, I noticed a characteristic about almost all of them. I'm drawn to tortured souls. That sounds quite horrific. But I often befriend those who have seen the darker sides of life. I feel as if they can understand me whenever I need to talk. I feel as if I can relate to them or understand them even if I haven't been through the same things they have experienced. I think about the people that I'm not usually friends with - the kind and ordinary people who haven't been afflicted with too much. I have no problems with these people at all! I just don't connect completely with them, and therefore a sort of distance exists between us. I feel like I live in a completely different world, and well, I know that I do.

Also, I have to keep so many secrets to myself, or simply a very small group of trustworthy friends, because I know everyone else wouldn't understand. They haven't been through it, so they cannot comprehend the events and the emotions at all. The sad part is that most of them don't even try. They attempt to share your dark secrets in an ugly way of warped gossip, when it's just the reality of my life. So many people will most likely never know how I really feel and what I have been through. But, it doesn't matter since I know that if I told them, it wouldn't mean what it should.

Always, Two Days Until Forever